I don’t know what to say except its killing me to write this and I can hardly type because I haven’t stopped crying..
We got to the vet office and the lady came out, checked for a heart rate, but we knew he was already gone.. my baby boy left us There is no way to desribe this unbearable pain I have. I am still in shock.. I keep thinking this is all a really horrible nightmare. And the worst part is not that he died, but that I couldn’t save him when he was dying… I just sat beside him on my knees checking his gums that were turning white and sobbing my eyes out, praying for someone to help him, for me to help him!
Our home is so empty now and I keep thinking about him walking down here to greet me, to look up at me with his soulful soft eyes.. I’d give anything to bring him back.. anything. He was my life, and my heart dog.
I feel like a zombie in a daze.. nothing matters right now.. CP went home at 9, and a couple friends came over to comfort me.. but this all just seems so fake..
I love you Boo Boo Bear… I wish I could of saved you.. that is what is going to kill me the most, that I watched you die and I couldn’t do anything, nothing but wait for help, and that help was too late.. I want to scream.. I feel to lost now..what will I do without him?
Owen you left us to soon. It is just so unfair. I remember the day you left, I just could not believe it had happened. Remembering you always.